I saw Edward yesterday, whom I haven’t seen in 2 years! It was absolutely amazing! But so much for the sex diet 😦 I feel like I tried so hard to resist and so did he but after 10 hours together it was futile. I think the date was extremely extended but neither of us seemed to want to be away from each others company.
It began with him picking me up at 8pm. Opening the car door for me to get in and closing it for me. Definite brownie points there! Then we went and had thai at a local restaurant and hired some dvds to watch at his place since we couldn’t decide on one to watch at the movies. I think that was my first mistake. I should not have agreed to movies at his. The whole time he was opening doors for me and being such a gentleman.
We got to his place and sat down at the table and had some deep and meaningful discussions over some apple and blackcurrant juice, which I thought was very cute. I uncovered his love for video gaming and online gaming which he blushed at. He showed me his world title belt and trophies from his international fights. Feats that he was very proud of. Which I found very sexy too.
After watching both movies, on two seperate couches, which I couldnt understand why, I motioned for him to sit near me. Which is my second mistake. He leaned in for a kiss and I didn’t move. Then he mentioned that was kind of awkward and I found that extremely cute and leaned in and we shared the most beautiful first kiss ever! It was like something out of a movie. We continued talking and sharing our life moments and kissing throughout. Then we were cuddling and things got heated. There was tickling and then one thing led to another and he was down on me. I wanted to return the favour but he was against it. I couldn’t understand why, and pushed the subject. My third mistake. Because when I did, he didn’t want me to stop. So I did. I think I really wanted to only because he didnt want me to, but when he did want me to I didnt want to. So obviously as hot and intense as that was, it was inevitable what would happen next. It was great but brief because I stopped it. I had so much internal conflict about the whole sex on a first date. Which he was so sweet and understanding about. He kept trying to make me feel better about.
So we cuddled again and spooned and talked and kissed. The kisses were amazing!! I felt like I was flying every time we kissed. The drove me home at 6am!! He had to go pick up his daughter at 7am. I had such a wonderful time despite the sex and would really want to see him again, but don’t want to appear desperate.
I really like this guy. His stats:
– Same age as me
– Owns his own business
– Has bought his house
– Single father
– Muay thai fighter
– Really awkwardly cute
– Sarcastic humour
– Caucasian
– Taller than me
– Beautiful body
– Two large tattoos
– Is a dog lover
– Responsible
– Enjoys traveling
– Seems neat and tidy 🙂
– Great Kisser!!
So now to wait and see when he contacts me and when he organises the nest meet which I hope will be next weekend at the latest.xx
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